how to escape:)

nag attend ako ng acquaitance kahapon hhhhmm hindi dapt ako aattend sabi ko til 9p.m me sa work para mabawan trabaho ko eh nag text si melay sagot daw ni marlon ang food hala heheheeh eh madali akong kausap yes ako kaagad makarinig lang ng food hehehehe i went home 30 mins after bossing leave heheh para kunwari sipag sipagan ako heheheh pero nag aapply ako for call center hhhhhmmm tinatanong ako ni mama kung makakaya ko daw ba yun sabi ko pag namatay ako yun hindi ko kaya :) heheheh hhmmm balik tayo sa acquaitance! busit! hirapan ako sa spelling na ito! ayon nga usapan namin 6 pm tapos 7pm nko dumating as usual alam kong galit sila kaya malayo palng eh nilabas ko na ang aking mga white teeth and ngiti hanggang tenga at sabing its fashion to be late heheheheheehehe nasa pilipinas tayo uso ang late heeheheheheheh!

masaya naman ang acquaitance,officer kasi ng student council si marlon yung mga food ng mga VIP yun binigay nya smen bukod dun dami namin food stamp kaya pa balik balik kami hehheeh tapos kahit hindi kami sumal;i sa games binigyan kami ng sim heheheeh mga pasaway! mejo nainis lang ako kay kate kagabi kasi pinigilan kami ng guard pumasok dun sa kabilang sid ng gym para kumain eh kakain lang man kami pero napilit din namin si manong pero nawalan na ng gana si kate siya pa namn yung yaya ng yaya na kumain kasi shes starving na raw tapos ganun lang tapos dinala ni melay yung food niya kasi balak niyang iwan lang yun doon duh! ang dami kayang nagugutom tapos sya itong binigyan ni Lord ng biyaya na makakain ng ganun iwan lang nya sa tabi na hindi nababawasan!! naartehan ako sa kanya sabi ko nga pag nagyaya ulit sila ng lakad at kasama si kate hindi ako sasama, tapos umuwi me ng 10P.M para maabutan ko ang JUMONG heheheh.

well ngayon ganun pa rin aga gising punta work huhuhuhuh isip ko nalng mga milyonaryo nga hindi nakakatulog sa dami ng yaman nila maswerte pa rin ako kahit bitin tulog at least naka tulog heheheh pero kainis pa rin hehehe kasi bukod sa kumain at umebs pag tulog ay isa sa pinaka masarap gawin!

nag case study kami ngayon ang hirap kya parang sa three question isa lang tama ko pero sana tama pa rin yung dalawa kanina nag tatawag ng names si Dr. for recitaion ehehehehe kun san san ako tumitingin para hindi matawag at kunwari may hinahanap heheheheh kasi hindi me confident sa mga answer ko heheheh:)

um bukas mag himala sana makapg apply ako ehhheh at matanggap!

im a fan of myself

i just edited my blog account and im happy with what i did, im about to sign out i still have a class i hope i could answer in the recitaion so i wont be disappointed this time eventhough i did not attend last week huhuhu i hiope i could stil pass this subjeect gtg

si fefe fumunta ng falengke nasagasaan ng fison fatay!:)

this first semester my first impression with my professors in all my subjects are really good i hope my first impression to them will last:) but theres one thing that i notice with some of my professor , they are mispronouncing f from p like filiffines where it should be philippines im not really good in english but at least i can pronounce it right right? heheehhe i hope they will not read this hehheheh but overall they are really good especially in my LAW3,MNGRL ECO,MRKTNG MGT

i think that from atty bejasa i can learn a lot from him because my first impression to him is that he is so strict so i will be forced to study before entering his class like in economics oh my before i forgot im thinking of dropping my two subjects which is managerial eco and marketing management well im still thinking of dropping it until monday because thats the last day of the add and dropping here in our school mrs cabalsa

is so strict but she is nice though i absent to her class yesterday because i got no money for my transportation even a cent yesterday was our first discussion i bet they already had a recitation i am so disappointed because i want to start my class in that two subjects right and i don't want to be left behind in our discussion because i am afraid that in next meeting i will be just a stupid person there sitting don't even know what they are talking about but my friends told me that i can pass that subject they believe in me but i don't believe in my self huhuhuh....

anyway i will still drop that managerial Eco because in the first place i don't even have plan to take it this semester before i enrolled but it still depends on what God wants with me I'm worried that if it will happen again that i will have no money again to go to school i have no choice but to absent again and thats will be the reason i will flunked specially now that my family and i have a financial problem....


Oh before i forgot my uncle from the side of my father died last tuesday i think they are asking my father to come to the province but we dont have a money i hope God can make a miracle for us......

my uncles spirit flew in heaven he is with God now the beginning of eternal life i thought that from the book of purpose driven life by rick warren:)

why do we have to go through this??

yesterday i thought was just an ordinary boring day i washed our clothes but it got rained that's why i got so irritated i thought i could wash more clothes if the coloured clothes are already dry....

The co workers of my parents before visited them, i did not greet them i don't want to be a hypocrite like them because they are the reason why my parents got fired from their work...

i told my mom that ill go to church this will be my first mass in our new house and the good thing there is that the church is walking distance from our house i told my self before that if only our house will be near the church then there is no reason for me not to go to church every Sunday then my wish came true i guess i will be obliged to go to church every Sunday but its not really an obligation ill be glad and honored to visit God every Sunday....

then i went to church to keep my promise to Him

Then i went home after the mass i thought it was raining again I'm glad that it stopped after the mass,

when i got home i learned from my little brother that one of the customer of my mom which is the auntie of the boss of my parents scolded my mom and said sarcastic words to my mom when her dress did not fit so well with her shes so stupid! my mom already told her that is just for fitting she did not listen to my mom and she continued criticizing my mom as my brother told me!

then i got so mad really really mad my teeth are grinding because i don't ever wanna see my parents mistreated like that,

if only i did not went to church and if only i was there i will punch that bitch and told her that we can still eat three times a day even if she did not ask my mom to sew her uniform,

then i went inside the garment to ask my mom about it i saw her talking to one of the sewer then i asked here i saw her face and i saw her eyes that she just finished crying my heart are crushed after i saw here face i just gave her a hug my part time job is not enough for me to help them for them to stop working that hard its enough only for my allowance and projects and thesis...

i cannot sleep at that night I'm thinking of my parents i just prayed to God to give us straight to face this trials bravely in our life and passed it.........

this me
i am what i am
i am what i wrote
no secrets
this is me
at this time
I'm really a problematic specie
at this time
and soon all my problems
will passed away
like it did not came in my life
it will be just a
memory
a memory to be proud of
that i came through this
and had survived

so this is it?????

i woke up so early just to get my self to go to school and the fucking prof did not come errr now im so bored i dont really have friends here i dont know why it is so hard for me to make friends with them maybe because i just dont like myself and im pretending to be someone else i just cant stop pretending whenever im with other people im always an actress everyday whenever im with other people im tired of being an actress now id rather be ALONE and talking to myself ,

haaay i am now a senoir in colllege i think and i am worried that my subject will be very difficult this year huh! last year i used to get high gardes i hope it will still be good this year i dont want to dissappoint my parents they are sacrificing too much for me i wish i could repay them soon....... i am so sad whenever i see them working so hard and they cannot stop because we still need them....my boyfriend told me to be more positive and leave the rest to God Raquel stop worrying of the thigs that are not still happening! raquel! listen to me! THINK POSITIVE!

my friends asked me to treat them a lunch today because i didnot treat them last my 16 becasue it mah bday last month but i dont have a money should i tell them or not i hoipe my mom could lend me some money so i will not be embarresd with my friends,

saan ba nabibili ang peace of mind?????

last month me and my family had gone through a crisis i thought it was impossible for me to study this semester, i am so thankful that i have a very supportive parents who will do everything just to provide our needs, i am very lucky to have them and i thank God soooooo much un pla yun JUST LEAVE EVERYTHING TO GOD! for the past few weeks i became a bitter person maybe because of all the bad rumors that i heard about my parents that are absolutely untrue and had no basis if i could only talk to those idoit person err and tell them how numb and idoit they are, if all that i think will come true i may now be a serial killer, but my pare told me to look at things more in a positive way kya un ill try to be positive hehehe ang forget my hatred hehhe gtg