im back!^_^

3 yrs and five months old na ang anak ko! hehehhe last post ko 5 months plang sya! ok naman kami yung wish ko nga lang makapag work ndi natupad... nag business pero hindi nag prosper ^_^ naka smile hindi dahil sa nalugi me it's because i might not have everything that i want right now but in God's time i will! focus muna sa family and pag tatapos ng mga kapatid ko^_^ and mag ipon muna... nung nag start kasi ako mag business hindi ako focus but sa susunod na business ko mas magiging hands on na ako...and hoping na dahil sa nakatapos na ang isa kung kapatid hindi ko na magagamit ang puhunan  ko sa business para pang tuition and allowance ng kapatid ko or pambigay sa pangangailangan ng mga magulang ko....

housewife

today is my son's 5th month

i am staying at home busy taking care of our son

i can say that being a housewife ...a full time mom is a very difficult??um naaaaah!! um hard? challenging?

i dunno! but whenever i see my son developing nicely and healthy it's all worth it! ganun!

i just want my son and my husband to be healthy and safe ganun pla un! i never thought na mag mamahal ako

ng ganito sa iba bukod sa family ko.... i just love them so much!!!!

anyway mag kakabusiness na rin kami i-pray na mag prosper para matulungann ko husband ko financially!

at mag ka work naman ako na ako ang manedyer!^_^

do what makes you happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im wasted!

exhausted!

piece of shit!

crap!

nonsense

dumb!

i am nothing!

who? me?

whoever?

blah!

nobody cares!

let go!

hello world^_^

february 08,2009 my husband and I went to the hospital
my OB-GYN need to see if i dilated already
but i did not so she decided to induce me on that same day
we went back first to the house because i haven't take a bath and also take the things that I and the baby need if the baby will arrived on that same day or the next day
the doctor advised me not to eat because i will be induce she said i might vomit and it will go to my lungs if i will eat...

around 1pm we went back to the hospital we went directly to the emergency room
but they asked us to wait outside
we waited a bit longer so i told my husband to go inside the E.R and ask the nurse if they can already assist us because the doctor is waiting for us
so they started it by interviewing me and my husband
after that the nurse started to take my blood pressure
then they put dextrose on me but before they inserted it i asked them how painful is it?
actually every injection every needle that they want to inject i ask them how painful it is and telling them please be very very carefull!!!!!!!!!
after the dextrose i had skin test and THAT WAS REALLY PAINFUL!

they sit me on a wheel chair
we went to the second floor my husband and i were both shocked pero sa akin shocked and scared kasi dinadala nila ako sa delivery room/operating room!
nung pag pasok ko talang sinabi ko na hindi pa ako manganganak ini induced palang ako! then they said yes mam we know we will monitor you here and have the fetal monitoring for your baby

then they asked me to take off my clothes even my under garments then pinalitan nila ng ewan ko kung anu tawag dun basta damit sa hospital then pinahiga nila me sa kama at kinabit yung mga strap at ikinabit sa isang fetal monitor

to be continued...........gising na angel ko

3 weeks to go! our angel is coming soon!

yes 3 weeks um more or less this angel inside my tummy is ready to take his first breath
but because its our first baby they said that first baby is usually 2 days or 2 weeks late
actually everyday ko na sya napapanaginipan eh^_^ EXCITED! na ako
i want to see na kung nu itsura ng nabuo namin hehehe maputi kaya ito
o kakulay ko? hehehehe um kanino kya sya mas kamukha? sa akin o sa daddy nya?
pero bka mas kamukha ng tatay kasi ewan ko ngayong buntis me mas madalas
gusto ko tinitigan ang asawa ko ngayon kesa nung hindi me buntis eh ^_^

pag nag papacheck up ako naiingit ako dun sa may mga hawak na new born babies sana may ganun
na rin me na hawak heeheh tska excited na rin me pumayat ulit ^_^

worried pa rin me manganak iniiisip ko kung ganu ba kasakit pero hindi na gaano,
ang concern ko nalang mailabas ko sya ng maayos yung hindi kami pareho nahihirapan
ito talaga ang essence of a woman harharhar!

A message from God

COPY KO ITO SA ISANG MULTIPLY BLOG KO KASI HINDI KO NA MA OPEN LA LANG ^_^"


No man will ever claim you unless He claims you from Me , for I reserved a man for you who has my

heart & loves me even more than he will for you, for i won't give you unless he ask you from me.

He's asleep; don't wake him he's busy for me My kingdom, soon you will know him, but i have the

perfect time,your my PRINCESS, My daughter, let no other prince claim you unless he ask you from my

hand for I am your Father the KING of kings, YOU my princess is worth loving for.......

senend yan sken ni faye ganda ng message db?! hehehheh paulit ulit ko binasa yan at na realize ko na may pag kakamali me ginawa hindi ko sya sinu2nod heheheh pero hindi namn ako nag sisi I love him eh CAS week nagun dapat hindi na mag turo yung dalawa kong prof para maaga me makuwi at makpag side line sa garment

Rules for a happy love affair :

The 10 commandments of love
galing ito sa prof ko nun sa FCL^_^

• never both be angry at the same time.

• never yell at each other unless the relationship is on fire.

• if one of you has to win an argument let it be your love.

• never bring up the mistakes of the past

• if you love to critisize do it lovingly.

• neglect the world rather than each other.

• at least once everyday try to say one kind of complimentary thing to your love one.

• when you have done something wrong be ready to admit and ask for forgiveness.

• never go home with an argument unsetteled.

• always have love, care and understanding everyday of the year.

last blog for 2008

Happy New Year!

New sa akin sa Year 2009

1.Civil Status( Married)
2.surname( Pascual)
3.most of all Im gonna be a mom!

next year will be one of the greatest and the most challenging year of my life syempre nga magiging mommy nko weh^_^

wish ko makahanap ng magandang work sa 2009
ma balance ko ang pagiging mommy,wife and work
wala sana me mapabayaan sa kanila

wish ko rin sa 2009 na makatulong na ako sa parents ko sa pag study ng mga gwapo kong kapatid kahit may family na ako^_^

wish ko din sa amin ng husband ko,sa family ko, family ng husband ko na good health forever,peace,love,prosperity,happines!

how hard and painful is it?

i am now 35 weeks pregnant I no longer worried about my parents who cannot accept my pregnancy
kasi ngayon tanggap na nila ^_^ galing ng prayer thanks kay Lord.....

ganu kaya kahirap ang labor and panganganak?
magiging magaling kaya ako na mom sa anak ko?
wala akong idea sa pag aalaga ng new born baby...
hindi ko nga alam kung mahahawakan ko sya....
kasi pag nakikita ko yng mga new born parang super delicate nila...

ano kya mas mahirap yung initiation ko sa sorrority o yung panganganak?
sana totoo yung painless na panganganak....

pero gaya nga ng sinabi ko before initiation..KUNG KAYA NILA KAYA KO DIN!
lalo na bigay pa ito ni Lord sa amin...hindi naman nya ito ibibigay sa akin kung hindi ko kaya....db?
ako na ang pnaka masayang mommy sa mundo kapag na ilabas ko sya ng healthy...normal...kompleto ang mga daliri basta ok na ok sya
worth it lahat kahit pa mahirap basta maging healthy sya^_^

i tried to be a live but they keep on killing me inside.................i am sorry

yeah can someone tell us what is the secret of a happy life?????
my family and I is still searching for it...
my parents raised me and did their best to get me into college
and now i graduated but i still couldn't help them because i got pregnant
i knew my responsibilities to them
since i was a kid all my dreams revolves around them
i wanted to make my parents proud of me
i want to help my brother to pursue their studies
that's why i studied hard to have a good grades so that they will not regret getting me into college
after school i help them in their business
i tried to be a good daughter to them as i can...
my life is programmed
for my family
then i fell in love
got pregnant.. not in my plan

i just realized that God has its own plan for my life
so i leave it all to Him because my life is in His hands not just mine but also the life of my family....

i cant make them happy but I am sure God can ....



i asked my parents to wait for a few months
but then everyday, if not everyday of that whole week
the every other day of another week they will always tell me that they regret that they gave so much trust on me and believed in me
they said that they thought I am their ALAS or their LUCK ... i also thought that...
but i just realized too that i am not
i said sorry to them
but they just cant accept it

it was like ...
i feel like they wanted me to see suffer for what i have done that their is no forgiveness.....
but i have my baby in my womb i tried so much not to be affected because i know it will also be bad for my baby
but everyday.. every time ...
may parents are different.... i loved them
but now ... i just realized
that all the good things that they did for me is just for their own sake........

I am still praying hard for all of us because i love them all so much ..God knows.......

i am now 18 weeks pregnant^_^

my tummy is getting bigger and i am getting more worried thingking what will be the reaction of my parents when they know about this.... i am happy but i cannot show it some people might not understand....i may not want it now but want it.. because God knows we are already ready for it .... this is a blessing in our relationship this is the fruit of our love .......^_^

i am so thankful kay God dhil kay wilmer he is so supportive kahit mnsan nag papakita me ng kahinaan ko heheheh.. God knows he will be the best fatrher for our childrensssssssss! hehehehe plurals madami daw kasi

out of the line.......

i don't know how to say this to myself....raquel you're gonna be a mom!.....whew! its like im happy but not prepared????????? every morning pag gising ko nararamdaman ko talaga na may nabubuoong tao sa tyan ko....

hindi talaga natin alam kung san tayo dadalhin ng life........kahit pa naka plano na ang lahat si Lord ang masusunod..
pero masaya ako at masaya ang mahal ko at mahal ko sya ang problema lang ang mga tao sa paligid ko sa kanya kasi walang prob sken meron eh......hindi nila maiintindihan alam kong mag jjudge sila kaagad....

never dare me....coz i will never do it.......siao

I'm on my way to our dorm when suddenly i saw this Internet cafe that i have been looking for since last Sunday night, so i decided to come and blog what had happened to me today, why does Nora scares me about my evaluation report?? does she think my life depends on that fucking evaluation??????????why she always mention that to me?? i never liked her and i know she also don't like me but i worked with her as a professional even though i don't really like her or any of them!!!!!people might think there is something wrong with me because i don't get well with them.... but i am a kind of a person that if somebody do good things to me i will do ten times more to them... OK fine there maybe something wrong with me but i know they made me like that....
this training sucks! i tried to enjoy it but i did not?? i thought this training would boost my self confidence because wow I'm one of the few who is chosen to be here and have international training! but instead it lowers my self esteem sometimes i fell like they treat me like their maid though????? i did not study for 4 years just to be like that! i hate it when they act smart and they know everything when i make mistakes.... i am not working with normal people i hope time will run much faster because i cant stand them anymore......

i don't want to leave my boyfriend here but i am not happy with what i am doing here.......

God please.....

yesterday is history...tomorrow is future and today is a gift that's why its called present^_^

hindi na ako makapag hintay umuwi

inaamin ko sa 100% ang reason ng pag punta ko dito eh 90% sa b.f ko at 10% sa career churva !hihihihihi ay landi ayan tuloy kinarma huhuhuhu gusto ko na umuwi!

i can't wait to go home.....

napapagod n ako sa training ko
na stress ko sa daily target ko
naiinis ako sa mga ka work ko,
naiinis ako sa mga maarte n customer
naiinis ako sa mga ka dorm ko
gusto ko ng umuwi.........
may mali sa akin pero hndi ko alam
mainit ang ulo ko
pagod ako.........
may mabuti kaya na maidulot itong training ko?
ang tagal matapos ng 6 months
pero pg iniisip ko b.f ko ayaw ko pa umuwi..
ano ba tlaga??basta uuwi kami...
ang hirap kumita ng pera
makakahanap kaya ako ng maayos na trabaho sa pinas?
ano kaya ang mangyayari sa akin pg balik?
makakatulong ba ako s magulang ko o burden pa rin ako?
ayaw ko ng mag pa apekto sa paligid ko..temporary lang 'to
matataps rin...
kung ganito kahirap mag trabaho dito,ganito din kaya kahirap sa pinas mag trabaho?
palagay ko hindi ng hirap pakisamahan ng ibang lahi,ibang iba sila....
ang dami kong iniisip kaya kahit off ko pagod pa rin ako...

full.............empty.....inadequate

confessions sa midterm exam.....^_^

nag karun ako ng leakage sa law 4 at taxation 2..... um tapos before ako mag exam ng law gusto ibigay sken ni roel yung leakage sa mgt scie hintayin ko daw sya..eh nakipag kwentuhan ako kay mam cbalsa kaya akala siguro nun kanina naka uwi na ako....

um kanina habang nag eexam kami sa strategic management pinakopya ko si rosalie pero pinkopya rin nya nag kalat tuloy yung sagot ko sa number 1 kay hindi ko natuloy sya pinakopya pa hehehhehe^_^

KLSP

i went to school today to return the book which i borrowed yerterday kasi ang penalty ng book P30.00 ang mahal di ba? eh dun sa bagong daan na alam ko papuntang school 20.00 lang pamasahe kya pumnta nalng ako ng school at least marami pa akong book na pwede pag pilian na mas useful sa report mko at baka naisauli na yung book ni david fred hehehee......um pero hindi ganun nang yari wala pa rin dun ang book at tinignan ko kung sino ang nang hiram um nag mamasteral pala ang nag wwork sa university bank huhuuhuh!

kaya dun nang ako nag basa ng kaunti pero walang pumapasok sa utak ko tapos ginutom pa ako pero nag lunch namn ako ng heavy pero lately nagiging gutumin talaga ako...um kinumpute ko kung mag kanu gagastusin ko pag nag meryienda ako dun at nag merienda ako sa bahay mas malaki pag sa school ako mag merienda tapos mag isa lang ako, eh kung sa bahay mas mura merienda lahat pa kami kaya umuwi nalng ako..

nag pa cute ako sa security sa school kasi hindi ako naka uniform pero naka college tshirt namn ako humingi nalng ako ng visitors pass and nag iwan ng ID pag uwi ko naka limutan ko i claim ang ID ko!naalala ko nalng nasa sasakyan na ako

kanina nung pauwi nakasalubong si storm dating brod dahil ako ay nag balik loob na sa katinuan hehehehehe, close kami nun ni roland nung active pa ako kaya namamansin pa pero yung iba hindi na talaga kagaya ni sis chie anyway hindi ko na sila sis and brod heheehhee niyaya ako ni roland sa frat house sabi ko next time nalng kasi mag aaral pa ako ^_^

dumaan ako sa simbahan ngayon pero dun na ako sa chapel nag pray para makapag concentrate me ng todo hehehehe^_^

kailangan maging maganda ang report ko sa monday para mapansin din ako ni mam yung pansin na hindi masama yung pansin na magaling hehehehehe^_^ kasi si darly nalng lagi pinapansin ni mam eh^_^

hhmmmm,,, first step to my dreams

i hope this week or may be next week may update nko sa pag alis ko heeheee.....singapore here i come

dead end....and God is the only way we know

this will be our way to everthing1

christmas rush...

i went shopping with my mom and ate rosa today todo bihis ako kasi nga gusto ko sa mall or sa pavillion man lang ako mamili but they both want na sa market nalang kya ayun dun nalng kami pumunta,

sabi ni mama sken nung umaga gift ko daw blouse kahit daw sa ukay ukay hheehhe ang balak ko sa pav ko sila lahat bilhan ng gift kahit na 1K lang datung ko kahit mga small items lang ba? eh nandun kasi kami kya ayun nag hanap kaagd ng ukay ukay si mama heheh pero pag nagka money me ulit before new year bilhan ko sila ni papa ng bago^_^

i also bought a pair of pants for myself dun sa suki ni mama pero balak ko ibalik kasi masyadong low waist kita na ang pwet ko....pati scrabble bumili din ako gusto ni gagay raketa pero hindi ko namn gusto yung mga outdoor game tska mas mura hehehehe....

namalengke kami ng ulam tapos nung bumibili kami ng tilapia may bata nag titinda ng petchay hehehehe cute nung bata galing din ng marketing strategy nung mga magulang nun noh heheheh lam nang marami na ang pasko para sa mga bata kung cute na bata nga naman mag titinda kahit hindi kailangan yung petchay (tulad ko) eh bibili heheheheh.......

nag tatanong b.f ko kung bakit daw ako nagalit .....eh feeling ko binabalewala nya ako? hmft ayaw ko sabihin sasabihin nanaman nun mababaw>: c